Saturday, January 16, 2010;
内心现在好想安那号码。。。好想看见你的回复。
我还是一样。。。带着面具傻笑着。
有谁看得见我的空虚呢？
每一个笑，都费了我好多的力气。。。
我停留在一望无际的海洋中央。。。那种无助和无奈的感受。
腐烂的伤口就像被人洒了盐巴一样。。。痛得我好像在一次的了解自己。
我无法让身边的人理解我，我封的太紧了。。。我以忘了如何松开。
我已经忘了自己为何存在。。。是为了逗他人笑还是为了目标？
飘扬在海洋的我，只有在暴风雨的天气里我才会冷静下来。。。脑海里才终于摆脱了“痛”
我能在暴风雨里躲多久？
ღThis is how all things worked...
牛奶@10:02 PM
Friday, January 15, 2010;
Even the salt on the fresh wound is very pain, i'm trying hard to smile as i could because outside the world there's alot more poeple being pour with piles of salt on fresh wound.And ya i had let go of her from that moment i closed everything. 14 years is a long years & just a blink ... she's gone. I asked myself , Could i really let go of everything?
Sadness should be over. Let me intro a girl i know! Her name is call shuhua! Hahas ... she's a smily & a bit unnormal! Ops .. she's gonna read this (>.<)! She's easy going & friendy! [Like being force to say]
Alright's i shell blog when i know her more ..
ღThis is how all things worked...
牛奶@4:42 PM
Monday, January 11, 2010;
现在的记忆仿佛停留在小学的时光。
和现在相比，还记得我向来不合群。。。老是被欺负。
回味起那时光。。。和现在相比真的是语言也无法形容。
忍不住回头看了看。。。那小学的我一点都不开心。而你们这是嬉皮笑脸的过每一。。。现在和你们联系上了，反而是我变得开心果而你们因为一路上碰到了挫折而不再笑了。。。虽然你们过去常欺负我但现在的我好想为你们做些什么似的。。。我想在听到你们大家再一次的笑。。。
命运这东西真得让我很不理解。或许我还停留在大家灿烂的笑容那一刻。。。但从你们的第一句话开始，我就已经知道。。。大家都成长了。
这六年里，我想大家也伤的不轻吧？岁月是不留人的。。。缘，是更加的残酷。
残酷虽残酷。。。我还是感到无比的喜悦应为我们联系上了！
友谊万岁！
ღThis is how all things worked...
牛奶@8:53 AM
Sunday, January 10, 2010;
i always thought i would be happy after found her.
i always thought i will have endless word after found her.
i always thought i will had something to hope for the very next day.
i always thought of you ..
Why are there so many always in my life? Beside u there's nothig else in my life to hope for ..
My heart is dead by now ..
ღThis is how all things worked...
牛奶@7:13 PM
Wednesday, January 6, 2010;
Finally i know im a stranger to you only because i saw other's talk to you & you reply so normally. For this fucking years , i being waiting like a fool. Now than i realize im a fucker who is foolish enough to wait you for 7years. i really tired ... i have no courage to say out your name. it's hurt ..
From that small conver with your ex stead , i know for this 7years i'm nothing to you. I remember clearly , you asked me for these years i find you for? i remember your attitude towards me .
7 years i being a fool and being waiting for you & belive you still who you are. for 7 years , fate let us meet each other 3 times .. there's no more 4th time. i keep on don't belive i could not found you .. i sigh up for facebook & trying my luck ..
And i did found you.
If i know out coming result will be like this .. i wish i never found you..
ღThis is how all things worked...
牛奶@9:15 PM
