It took me just a short hour to finish reading your 6years life even tot it start from 2006. I dare not miss out every post your wrote but everyday of your day life seem so 痛苦。
It's being 6years since i being finding you and everyday i told myself it's an end to you. I couldn't forget the feeling for you and it's painfull when year come. It's being 6years i miss out your birthday & this year on the 28oct i wished you throught the star on the sky .. hopefully you could hear me .. but i know you did not.
The song is my feeling now ..
i'm so sad after reading your blog from 2006 - 2009 ..
ღThis is how all things worked...
牛奶@2:33 PM
Saturday, November 7, 2009;
You are just a fucker: Do you think you guys really understand me ? Come-on , show me your true self & stop going around the bushies & act as if like you the one who save us. I did not talk back whatever because i don't bother to reply you anymore because in your world , you are always right & the "Saver"
Tell me to fuck off: Come-on ,
-You are just a fucker .. dam seriously-
tell me i'm a fucking boring person & i'll fuck off your life. For years , i being entertain-ing you & YOU only come to me when you need me. You are fucking 18 now .. Can for the goodness sake you just of my feeling for once? I'm your toy? I'm your part time player or what? -Another fucker in my life's-
Can you just fucking understand & stop being kids?: Hey you! Ya you! Why are you such a fucking kids act ? Do you think i fucking enjoy scolding you or saying you? You don't understand me well wasn't you? I don't know how show warm concern? I only know how concern a person by scolding & saying . I know i hurt you alot but have you ever hear in my words? -You r fucking 18 but just a fucking 8 yrs old kids-
Are you a liar also?: Why , why & still why. Why you always being telling me that you will be there when i need & i need you by my side for the rest of my life yet you reject me again & again. I thought you understand me . I thought you the 1st person who understand that i need people by my side. But im so wrong .. you are just like the other's .. Pityness for me .. -I'm the fucker instead of you because i don't understand you well . -
Yes you guys should know who you guys are .. & yes i admit im a fucker .. a dam fucker. I have courage to admit my mistake . I have pride in my life which i don't tend to cheat. This call pride & courage need time to take out. You all not only don't understand , even laugh at me .. i dam conform you all will ask me " did we? u r really a fucker because we trying help you .. " I say before .. i read a person mind dam clearly .. Dare you all tell me you understand me? Trust me , if you are wrong , for the rest of my fucking life i swore you are out! Because you are just another human who tend to pitty me with your fake mask which i'm tired of entertain-ing :).. All the fucker's can't read this i know .. because i know
Fucker's will never admit they are fucker's .. Human r cowards & selfish ..
ღThis is how all things worked...
牛奶@3:48 PM
Thursday, November 5, 2009;
Most of the time i being wonder how wrong i am. Why do mummy so side him? All her hard earning , saving all goes to him.
All my hard earn money goes to this family & i got no extra pay to buy whatever i want & had i ever ask from mummy you?
Did you ever had extra saving? No! I ever wanted so many thing's .. yet i just get over because i know you had no extra saving buy for me & so do i had extra saving . You told me you had saved all the money i gave you every time i work. Yet now? Where are the money? Where are the fucking money i gave you?
