Saturday, December 12, 2009;
i use to be a workaholic where by everyone was enjoying their holidays , gaming , shopping or slacking.
Now i told myself i will spent more time with friend and quit working but now .. i got lots freedom but my friend doesn't. They was busy working and me? Stay home doing nothing.
What does fate really want me to do? I being working so hard and being true to everything yet i get this kind of fate in return?
Yes i admit i did lots of unkind thing in past but it's over wasn't it ?
I cried and beg the heaven tell me what to do.
Friends around all could get their ms right but why not me? Why would fate play me around? I doesn't know why ..
I know i'm full of boredom and come to worse , i don't even go out so often and even i do , i don't talk. I just don't like speak too much when with girl's because i just wanted to quietly enjoy the time with her.
I cried and beg the heaven give me a ans tell me ..
Heaven heaven .. stop fooling me pls ..
ღThis is how all things worked...
牛奶@3:59 PM
Tuesday, December 1, 2009;
In my current life , i ever wonder had anyone ever try to understand who me? I don't even understand whats my target next.
Since after 6years i being searching for her .. & yes i found her.
It was in my predict .. things wasn't perfect. I totally broke down after reading her dairy.
I have nothing more to be 期盼。。。neither i had any life hope..
wake up..
全无目标。。。
ღThis is how all things worked...
牛奶@8:13 PM
